Some lessons have to be repeated over & over & over again until they stick. I’m recognizing one of those lessons for myself now.
Let go of control.
This is a lesson I’ve had to repeat & repeat & repeat endlessly. I am a pretty chill, go with the flow type of person - or so I like to think. Turns out I’m actually a bit of a control freak. I like to know what’s happening, when, where, and how. And the truth is, I like to be the one steering the ship. So when nothing goes as planned, that is when I get a chance to learn & grow.
And that’s exactly what happened on my latest trip to Hawaii. From beginning to the very end - nothing went as planned. And you guys… it was totally okay.
I messaged my cousin on insta because he’s been living in Hawaii for awhile and I thought it could be fun to plan a future visit & teach some workshops. I had September in mind, but he told me he was running a yoga retreat in two weeks and said to come out & teach. So I booked my flight. I tend to make plans far in the future so that I have plenty of time to plan the details & get myself ready. This is the most short notice I have ever traveled. But it was totally fine.
When I got there, instead of heading to a retreat center like I planned on in my mind, we went to the most beautiful secluded beach framed by towering cliffs and lush jungle & we camped. I didn’t exactly pack for a camping trip. I wasn’t prepared to be outside for 12 days. But it was totally okay - more than okay. It was better than a retreat center. What better way to connect with the spirit of the island than to live, breathe, & sleep in total connection to it?
It turns out this wasn’t a yoga retreat at all. It was more just a fun trip for my cousin to do a bit of a trial run for a future retreat. So I didn’t need to be prepared with classes, I didn’t have to plan any sequences or themes or adjust for the level of students at the retreat. I didn’t have to work at all. And I guarantee you, had I known that in advance, I wouldn’t have come. I would have stayed home & worked. & I would have totally missed out on an amazing trip & a huge lesson.
For 12 days, we lived without plans. When we made plans, sometimes we wouldn’t follow through with them. It turns out that not having a plan tested me. That need for control & structure comes into play in everything I do. It also turns out that not having a plan can lead you to some really incredible places. It can guide you to sit and talk for hours with interesting strangers. And it can also teach you a lesson. To let go, and live a little.
Grateful for the experience, grateful for the lessons.